Well, I had a lovely coffee night with my amazing and diverse circle of women friends last night. Sometime I feel so new to the whole Christian thing, and coupled with the knowledge of how wacky and abstract I am, I get afraid that I am going to " mess up" and sy the wrong thing. The silliest part of all this is that these are the coolest, finest ladies this side of the whole Christian thang! Still, i feel like I am young Grasshopper. Which leads to nervous energy, and me speaking in metaphors and too loud and too much. This fear is rooted in my weird (too much so to get in to) childhood. It is sufficient to say that the two women I was closest to growing up never really got me, felt threatened by me, and I ditto for them, for years. So it feels like I am in a dangerous sea, and my boat could capsize at any moment. Lucky for me, these sweet ladies are the perfect companions for this thrilling new adventure-amazing friends.

It all comes down to self esteem and faith.

Anyone who doesen't quite get my metaphors, I refer you to Hannah.